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watching
Parks & Rec s6, Sleepy Hollow s1

reading
Lolita (Vladimir Nabokov)

writing
Sam/Dean Minibang, Sastiel Lawyer!AU

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I want us to be together again.


I'm alive, but I am broken. I'm alive, but I'm ashamed.

1 hour ago   &   505

grumpyjackles:

so apparently I was having a love affair with his hands yesterday. I make no apologies. 

3 hours ago   &   616

You just charged a super-vamped-out Gordon with no weapon. That’s a little reckless, don’t you think?

4 hours ago   &   507

Hey guys! So my dash has been pretty quiet lately (at the times when I’m actually around and not buried under a pile or dust or nuclear waste), so I’m looking for a few new blogs to follow. Generally I prefer to actually follow and not just bookmark blogs that do some or all of the following:

  • make stuff,
  • mix in some personal stuff with their fandom stuff (all those times I say I like to know about your life? I am not lying),
  • are run either by non-shippers or multishippers or have a particular ship but don’t focus on it specifically as their blog content, and/or
  • don’t have lots and lots of long text posts because I do a lot of mobile blogging (some are fine, just not a blog that’s almost all text all the time)

I’m really interested in following more Castiel-centric blogs that are simultaneously not Destiel-focused. And I will only follow blogs that are generally positive about SPN and criticize intelligently (and without being an asshole) when they are being negative about it.

So please please recommend me some of your favorite blogs? 

(PS if you have loved blogs that don’t fit all my crazy anal retentive criteria, also feel free to rec them because I can add them to my bookmark list even if I don’t follow them.)

(PPS you can tell me to look at your blog, self-reccing is cool in my book.)

6 hours ago   &   3
soulstumped:

Dallascon 2014 │ Jared & Jensen

soulstumped:

Dallascon 2014 │ Jared & Jensen

6 hours ago   &   1030

sammysalive:

sammyatstanford:

Ok ok but think like after he kills Lilith, Sam using sex with Castiel as a way to keep himself away from his addiction. Castiel taking care of him, giving Sam guidance and control and somewhere to take out his anger and frustration and worthlessness because Castiel can take it, Castiel can pin him down or tie him up or choke Sam with his cock when Sam wants to sink his teeth into a demon’s veins.

But when Castiel is weaker, suddenly he needs Sam to take care of him instead of the other way around, needs Sam to be gentle because he isn’t as strong, because he needs to save his strength for when it’s life-or-death. And maybe Sam tops for the first time, draped over Cas’s back like a blanket of sweat and heat and Cas can’t get enough of it because now that he can feel the temperature he’s cold all the time, Sam moving inside of him and making him feel all of the good, pure, amazing things about his humanity, Cas coming with tears in his eyes and later staring in the mirror at this body that he had occupied before, but never known, not until Sam showed him.

And the conversations they’d have about it. Sam coming to Cas when he’s desperate, kissing Cas for all he’s worth but holding back, resisting taking what he needs. So Cas pushes him a little.

"Tell me what’s wrong," Cas demands, holding onto Sam’s arms to keep them wrapped around him. "Why do you keep pulling away when you want more?"

Sam does want more. he wants to lose himself in Cas, in the taste and smell and feeling of his body and that small echo of grace that bleeds out from his lips when he kisses him. But all of Sam’s want comes from the darkest place inside him, the place where he’s a monster, full of desires and violence he can barely control. He feels like every time he kisses the angel, he’s letting the monster win. Letting it feed on something divine.

"Don’t want to use you, Cas. I don’t want to take any more of your grace. It’s not me, it’s not—"

"Sam, stop. Please, stop thinking you’re taking anything from me that I don’t want to give." Castiel tangles his hands in Cas’s hair and pulls him down for a fierce kiss. "Do you feel that?" he asks.

"Grace," Sam answers. It’s like electricity and wind, a lightning storm on his lips. "It’s fading away."

"No, Sam, it isn’t. I mean, yes, it is leaving me, but when I kiss you?" Sam won’t look at him. Cas ducks his head to catch Sam’s eye, cupping his cheeks to keep his gaze. "When I kiss you, it comes back to me. Like blowing on embers, keeping the fire alive."

There is a desperation in his voice and his eyes, and Sam holds the angel’s body against his own, to remind him that he’s there.

"Cas, I…"

"Keep me alive, Sam," Cas asks, leaning up for another kiss, whispering against Sam’s lips. "Please, keep me alive."

When he claims Cas’s mouth in another kiss, Sam feels the storm surge between them, filling his lungs and making him gasp, drinking in the grace that sparks from every place where they touch. They both know that one day, they will kiss and the grace will not be there; it will have faded into ash despite everything. But for now, they will kiss like they can save it, and when that day comes, they will kiss like they can bring it back, because it isn’t really about the grace at all, and it isn’t about the demon blood, and it isn’t about angels or Lucifer or the end of the world.

It’s just about them, about the love that, for a little while, anyway, kept Sam human and Castiel divine.

6 hours ago   &   63

Ok ok but think like after he kills Lilith, Sam using sex with Castiel as a way to keep himself away from his addiction. Castiel taking care of him, giving Sam guidance and control and somewhere to take out his anger and frustration and worthlessness because Castiel can take it, Castiel can pin him down or tie him up or choke Sam with his cock when Sam wants to sink his teeth into a demon’s veins.

But when Castiel is weaker, suddenly he needs Sam to take care of him instead of the other way around, needs Sam to be gentle because he isn’t as strong, because he needs to save his strength for when it’s life-or-death. And maybe Sam tops for the first time, draped over Cas’s back like a blanket of sweat and heat and Cas can’t get enough of it because now that he can feel the temperature he’s cold all the time, Sam moving inside of him and making him feel all of the good, pure, amazing things about his humanity, Cas coming with tears in his eyes and later staring in the mirror at this body that he had occupied before, but never known, not until Sam showed him.

7 hours ago   &   63
Sam teaching Cas about his body. As an angel Cas felt everything at once. But as he loses his grace the universe becomes smaller, his joints hurt, his heart aches, and Sam’s lips taste so sweet.

*paws at you feebly*

7 hours ago   &   1
7 hours ago   &   381
Mr. Robot is keeping me company today.

Mr. Robot is keeping me company today.

8 hours ago   &   1